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4/29/2013

ultimate.

Every Sunday afternoon, rain or shine, my friend Matt picks my sister and I up from our house and we play ultimate frisbee. It started last summer with only six of us. We would divide into teams of three and play on a tiny portion of the soccer fields. It was hot and dry and there was more lazying around the field than actual playing. We would go to frozen yogurt after for dinner and hang out before going home.
 [this was last summer when we played with the youth group]
My sister and I weren't very good. We started with only knowing the basics. Nobody really wanted us on their team; they didn't complain, but we didn't add much to the game. It's been almost a year since we started play, throwing a frisbee around and running and catching. We've gotten better. Slowly our little group has expanded. There are normally about sixteen of us who play now. Normally my sister and I are the only girls. They boys look out for us, always making sure that we're okay if we fall or if they fun into us. They've slowly learned that my sister and I can play the game. We're not just there to hang out or look cute on the sidelines. We play.

And we've adopted the boys. We fondly call them 'our boys' and bake them cupcakes on their birthdays. We mother them, much to their annoyance at times. We make sure that they have water and sunblock and have granola bars at the midway point of our games. They know we do it because they're our friends and we love them. I suspect they also tolerate it because they know the cupcakes will stop if they don't. ;)

I love the feeling of being sweaty, weird as that is, it's true. I like the feeling of pushing my body to it's limits over and over again. When you play a game with very competitive guys, that's how it is constantly. You're always running, sweat dripping down your face and legs and your arms sticky with it. There's something about it that makes you feel alive,  and that's what I love. That feeling when your body's humming with energy and adrenaline and your senses are heightened. But the thing I love most is when you yell out, "Ultimate!" and your arm flings forward, releasing the frisbee and the game begins again.

4/27/2013

in which Bailey figures out her life.

In other words, I realize that in order to achieve my goals, I need to get a really, really, really good SAT score. And a ton of scholarships.

Over the past months my dad has been pushing me to figure out with I want to do after highschool. Next year is my senior year and to say that I have an early case of senioritis is a huge understatement. I have to be a full time student after I graduate due to insurance stuffs and up until about two weeks ago I had no ideas about my life and didn't know what I wanted to do or be or anything. Dad wanting me to get ready to start applying to colleges and do early apps was not helping my ball of stress to diminish.

At all.

So yesterday I sat down and thought about my future. Things I feel strongly about. Things I want to do and this is what I texted my best friend this morning: "So, I'm unloading this on you because if I told my mother she would stress and then my life would be even more hectic. Anyways. I decided what I want to do [with my life]. As of right now I'm considering pediatric endocrinology and becoming a doctor. I figured it all out. I'd major in biology, go to grad school for endo, and then have a three year residency at a hospital, followed by a two year fellowship in the area I want to specialize in. So...I could do this and be a doctor by my 30th birthday. I just don't know if that's what I want yet."

Ladies [and gentlemen, if there are any of you reading this blog, which I sort of doubt], your beloved blog-writer has lost all sense. She's completely crazy, but the weird thing is, this could very possibly work out for her. She got straight A's in her AP bio class freshman year and has always loved science.

(She also likes talking about herself in third person, apparently.)

People always talk about the broke college student, but I'm not even in college yet and I'm already broke. Eep. o_o